Look with your eyes, not with your hands.


Such a minute fraction of this life do we live: so much is sleep, tooth-brushing, waiting for mail, for metamorphosis, for those sudden moments of incandescence: unexpected, but once one knows them, one can live life in the light of their past and the hope of their future.



A grad student muses on her life, film, friends, politics, reality televizzle, and music.

 
entertaining can be taxing.

Weird little weekend in this weird little place called Middlebury. It feels like forever that I spent an entire, uninterrupted weekend on campus. Since I had a carload of friends coming up from New York, I thought this served as a good reason to pass the time in Middlebury, 05753. The realization came a little late, but basically there was little to nothing brewing in the social houses this weekend and after wandering around extensively, nothing really came to fruition, although the discovery of archive.org perhaps merits sticking around for a full 48 hours. In some respects though, the weekend as a whole forced me to evaluate my presence here this weekend and perhaps more appropriately, my absent minded presence and physical absence from this place. I guess there are signs indicating that graduation is approaching at the right time. Lately, I feel like a frequent business traveller who breezes onto campus to make a pitch and pick up drycleaning with the real, important stuff going on elsewhere.

But now I am tired and my room is excessively clean (this is usually the result of my counter-active behaviors after living in tenement-like conditions with four other people, sticky drinks, and tiptoe-ing around crowded paper piles, .for an extended period of time). The jury is still out on whether I'd be better off living alone or in the company of others. Cursedly, I seem to be equally sensitive to boughts of loneliness and social claustrophia. It's really strange when you take stock of how little you know about yourself - even able to answer the question outright, I prefer to be alone or in large groups.

Looking forward to some reading tonight on clean sheets, perhaps giving thought to my political philosophy research paper, reading the book of Genesis, having complete authoritative control over music selection, and just getting some peaceful, quiet, productive rest.

posted by lmjasinski at 2:48 PM