Feeling Useless
Idleness consumes the once idealistic. I think the monotony is finally settling in, the way snapple settles at the bottom of the bottle - in a sort of disgusting and unappetizing way. I made some progress on my organized closet today (bought & constructed a shoe rack), but, people, let's just call a spade a spade here - this being home with nothing to do song and dance routine ain't cutting it for me anymore. Tonight I've been half-watching a very sub-par episode of American Idol and trying to research some new debate cases and remembering how lousy I am at it... I write very few cases and being outside of
the academy and thoughtful discourse, it only makes it that much harder. As far as gleaning cases from current international events, it's harder than you'd think. It's hard to focus on something that can actually lead to a good hour's worth of debate dealing with Iraq - more than
we should or
we shouldn't, or we should
now compared to we should
later - make the topic too big and it'll surely get away from you and get messy, fast. At the same time, it's hard to come up with something that's innovative without being excessively obsecure. I am just frustrated.
Now I know what some of you may be thinking... you complain when you are busy and sleep deprived... you claim to be motivated and ambitious but can't make good use out of having "all the time in the world"... ick. Don't care if I whine too much or if I am a hypocrite or moody or whatever... I am bored and listless and the end is hardly in sight. Send suggestions my way, let's hope an employer comes to my rescue soon enough.
Perhaps I should look for a summer nanny job on the Cape or something sunny and light.
posted by lmjasinski at 11:23 PM
