Look with your eyes, not with your hands.


Such a minute fraction of this life do we live: so much is sleep, tooth-brushing, waiting for mail, for metamorphosis, for those sudden moments of incandescence: unexpected, but once one knows them, one can live life in the light of their past and the hope of their future.



A grad student muses on her life, film, friends, politics, reality televizzle, and music.

 
I learn by going where I have to go

Another restless day in terms of figuring out anything important. Just the same, today brought much excitement concerning smaller matters. I was able to talk to a woman who recent earned her PhD in Cultural Studies from Wisconsin. She is also a Midd grad so I think we have a similar set of expectations concerning education, schools, and learning environments. After talking to her, I feel confident about what I'll learn at Madison - even if it is like a "dingy Ann Arbor." But it sounds like the film people are chummy, go to screenings together and then go off for thai food, a general routine I think I can get accustomed to. It's nice to hear reaffirming common sense logic, about trusting my gut. In talking to her, I affirmed how difficult it is to steer your way through the grad school admissions process. There aren't many sign posts along the way and it's a pretty wild jungle out there. Again it always seems to be the case that you aren't ready to pick a grad school until you've had a few years as a grad student to do some inside research and professional shopping around. But I give myself some credit for making it this far and feeling like I have as much of a handle as I can on what I am looking for, what I want, and how I can fit what I want to do into a program. Time will just tell if personalities and advisors fall into place as easily as a research topic. I feel like I bought myself another day of waiting with replacing stagnation with personal impressions.

I triumphed and got my lazy sister out of the house today. We went on a wild goose chase in search of her favorite pizza chain, but also went to the mall, package store, video store, CVS... to what amounted to about four hours of "running around." Even if we were going in circles, at least we got out there. Today also marked the end of my laziness in that, you'd never expect to hear this, I joined a gym. (my sister and I are actually running a scam in that we're going to share the pass) The sad thing is that the gym is at the end of my street and I pass it every time I come or go from my neighborhood, so I probably should have done this a long time ago. Just the same, believe it or not, in a previous lifetime I was an athlete, but I've become increasingly less athletic with each passing year of college. Everyone else I know works out regularly so it was probably just a matter of time until I joined the "fitness craze." But this marks the beginning of a newer, fit, exercizing, and yoga doing me. I hope this breaks up the routine I've slipped into that consists of little more than sleeping late and watching reality tv... I guess it's always most convenient to explain not working out because you're too busy, but I don't think that excuse will fly with good faith anymore... so here's to this new resolution and may at last through my depature in August.
posted by lmjasinski at 12:06 AM