Taking a Break
I guess effective as of the last time I penned a meaningful post, but I think that I've opted to take a break from blogging for a while... return date, TBA.
It has been one of the hardest weeks in a while - emerging with a new address, beautiful apartment & very good new roommate to match, and a week with my parents under my belt. Already, I can't help but feel burdened under the impending start of a new semester, now about a week out, and I don't feel quite as motivated and prepared as I once dreamed that I would be in what was a very distant July. School starts for me on the 2nd, teaching begins on the 3rd.
There are certain hurdles that all relationships inevitably meet, but Patrick and I have endured more than our fair share in the past calendar week. After a fond farewell party and a housefull of guests, he left for St Louis on Friday. Yesterday morning, his mother, who was an amazing and strong woman who battled cancer for 10yrs, died at her home in Los Angeles. This is one of those private things that seem indecent to mention in such a public way, but I've been too pressed for time / too crippled by insufficient telecommunications to talk about it any other way. He left for California today and I'll join him tomorrow night in time for the service on Wednesday. Above all else, I just wish I could be with him right now. Otherwise, I feel like I have much to learn in this emotional territory, but for the time being, I just want to be there & it's the best I can do.
I feel every bit a year older, now that I am 24.
posted by lmjasinski at 10:16 AM
